Hey december, you and tiesto

Dear December 2011,

Yes its me and yes im still alive and still breathing for the past half of this December. After trying so hard to survive the obstacles on my last post, at last i did it. Well managed to went through the obstacles that i think i wouldn't made through. Patience make me strong. Susah tapi sebab banyak motivate diri dengan banyak bende yang positive. (dah macam Fadzilah Kamsah kan aku -.-" tak leh blah)

This is what actually had happened to Kid :

Chapter One

• Went to Syafnida's sisters wedding at International Youth Centre, Cheras. Not bad at all. Kid pakai all black baju melayu sebab Syaf suruh. Kid has been invited early of November. Then tup tup Syaf bbm bagitau date, venue and time.
• Congratulation to her sister and maybe lepas ni Syafnida Shuhaimi pulak kawen kan. InsyaAllah.
• A Well syaf, thanks for the invitation and i'd so much fun with u that night.

Syafnida's sister wedding reception

Chapter Two

• Nothing much. Kid tak buat apape sangat. Lepak dekat rumah mostly. (rehat pale hotak aku lah dah berbulan-bulan rehat -.-")
• Macam biasa kene nagged dengan Izril and Izira sebab unemployed and do nothing. Actually bukan tak nak. Hmm how to explain ek. Ish! (padahal orang laen tu lagilah masalah dunia, masalah duet, masalah negara and mcm-mcm masalah lagi) 
• My plan is actually macam ni, Kid nak kerja while waiting for the next upcoming May. Huish kalau boleh nak pergi jauh je rasa.
• 
  

The perfect office attire

Chapter Three

• Tiesto was here at Sepang for the THIRST 2011 on 10th December. Ticket dah beli. Dheena drove us there. Memang excited tapi kali ni rasa sesuatu. Sesuatu yang macam mana? *jeng jeng jeng abes saspen la ni* 

Tiesto's 1

Tiesto's 2

Tiesto's 3

Tiesto's 4

Tiesto's 5

IszrfAsrf

Surviving the obstacles

Dear November,

Its been quite sometimes that we didn't meet. Well for me, the last November is a catastrophic success to me on that month. *sigh* Lets just not talk about last November and begin with this November.
Well it is a special month.

The Final Semester Result 

• Remember my last post yang Kid cakap Kid sbenarnya tak pergi pon practical but the college thought that im on my industrial training for 5 month? *sambil angkat-angkat kening*
• Okay Kid went to college and guess what? My final semester result is 3.33. Ohsemmm! 
• So i'd managed to tipu my lecturer (padan muka kau lecturer gemok sebab gadoh dengan aku) and Kid finally succeed to finished my Diploma in Culinary Art! *dengan bangga dan bergaya*
• At this point, Kid bukan nak membangga or mengecil-ngecilkan (mungkin sekecil kuman di darat) tidak sesekali terlintas nawaitu untuk memburukkan sape-sape. 
• Tapi, disebabkan before this Kid had been through such a rough nervous breakdown and most of the people around me and SOME people tried to reach my highest boiling point with their stupid sarcasm and said that because of Kid had changed after Kid had broke up and due to Kid spirits that's lost somewhere over the rainbow (okay ni tak kelaka tapi Kid nak korang paham yang memang Kid hilang semangat) *metafora aku memang fak gile kan* 
• They'd assumed that Kid will not make it or will get through my life as a student and have the thought like Kid will never receive that diploma. Not only that, ramai yang berpendapat yang Kid akan berhenti dari college.
• Well guys, Kid dah pon prove to all of that people yang sangat suka UNDERESTIMATE other person. (kau pon bukannya bagos sangat sebab kau actually takde keje and menjatuhkan org laen tu kan hobby kau) 
• Maybe korang akan kata, "alah die tu lulus sebab naseb je college dia tak tau yang die tak pergi practical! " Kepada org-org yang beranggapan begini please read carefully my statement below. *fefeeling sangat nak buat-buat statement kan*
• What i'd been through for the past TWO years and all along that FIVE month practical that i cant proceed is more TOUGHER and HARDER than u guys can imagined if u wanna compared to the practical session that all my batch went to.
• It is SUFFOCATING. Im not made up this story cause i know u guys wont believe what i'd said. (depends on u guys bcos everybody have their own thoughts) And this is NOT FUN!
• Well said and proven, im thankful that God still love me. Why i said so? Because only He can feel, hear, see, help and so much more than we can imagine. Alhamdulillah.
• Maybe Kid did pass through this diploma because He knew me well and the only ONE that understood what i felt and why i'd changed. 
• "Bila Tuhan turunkan hujan yang tak henti-henti, dengan guruh berdentum dan kilat sabung menyabung, kita manusia tertanya-tanya, mana agaknya pergi matahari? Rupa-rupanya Tuhan gantikan dengan pelangi.."

Nov ; examination result yg menakotkan

Nov ; sempoi amek result pakai shorts

The Challenging November Obstacles

• Well Kid bukan nak deny sesetengah kritikan daripada mereka-mereka yang berpendapat macam-macam dekat Kid (moga Tuhan ampunkan dosa korang) tapi tak eloklah and Kid tau korang maybe fed up sebab Kid is still in love with the same person for the past TWO years weyh! (bukan nak cakap yg Kid ni memang loyal ke ape tapi inilah kenyataan) *ngomong sama tangan jika enggak puas hati*
• Rindu? ape ittew? HAHAHA orang gila pon tau rindu tu ape takkan lah korang yang muda remaja ni tak tau. *rolling eyes mampu* Missing that person is the thing that make me stronger to get through each day with full of hopes that we will be in love again. (sekarang sila nyanyi lagu 'I Still Believe' by Mariah Carey untuk mendapat mood yang tepat bagi post ini)
• As we know, kesabaran is the key to every single thing and its the main key to unlock all of our question. Kid banya belajar apa itu sabar and how to implied towards myself so that i'll be a better person and wishing that one day it will unlock all te question that have been playing in my mind for the past two years. (kemain lagi aku bertazkirah dan yg plg best korang dapat pahala sebab baca seuntai kata untuk dirasa yang Kid sendiri pon tak tau dari mane dtg idea ni) *fefeling lindungan Kaabah*
• Im much more wiser and matured compared to last two years and i guess, Kid nowadays had changed and became a person that's actually kinda 'his type'. Its not the way that i chose to be, i meant kita semua memang boleh buat pilihan but in this case, i guess this change is for good. (ha'ah yeye je aku menulis and korang pon bace je ape yg aku tulis) 
• LESS is MORE isn't it. Even ape yg Kid post probably dia takkan baca or probably memang Kid dah hilang followers or readers yang macam dulu (masa tu memang readers suke sangat message through fb mintak Kid update about Kid, dia dan yang lain-lain) and now Kid write things down to EXPRESS not to IMPRESS anyone. *muka marah menunjukkan penegasan*
• Kid pon taknak bende yang sebelom ni jadik lagi. Misunderstanding about my blog and i'd deleted my old blog just to ensure that person Kid rather sacrifice that blog than losing that person.
• So start from now onward, i hope that all of my post will not make anyone feel like im embarrassing them or menjatuhkan mereka mahupun mengutuk. (mintak maaf sape yg terasa or memang patot terasa EH) 
• 16th of November dah pon berjaya Kid went through. *pheww lap peloh kat dahi ni* Pray for me that i'll get through this upcoming 25th November better than 16th November. Amin. (rindu nak hug you ketat-ketat :| ) *malu sebab rindu so nyorokkan muka belakang teddy bear* 

Nov ; nampak je no. 16 mesti nak amek gamba

Tata sume. 

IszrfAsrf

As early of this year review pt 2

Dear 2011 once again,


This is probably the sequel from my last post. Its not appropriate to leave some stories hanging just like that. So tonight i will finish it to complete the review and what we'd missed due to my mystery hidden presence. (walaupon sebenarnya dalam bahasa melayu sangatlah simlple which is Ghaib tapi aku gatal nak bahasa omputih kekononnye)

Enjoy this post.

A sequal to a review as early of this year

June 2011

• Still doing nothing at the moment. Enjoying the the 'vacation' that i'd made own my own. Rasa guilty actually sebab did nothing or any effort to call the college or cari tempat untuk practical.
• But bukanlah completely Kid ignored my practical yang tak menjadi ni. I did looked for a few places and hotels untuk habeskan practical. Send my resume to a few hotels and didnt get any reply from them. Probably they dont hire a trainee or internship from college kot.(sedapkan hati sendiri sebab lama jugak tunggu hotel tu nak reply) Fak u hotel *angkat dua2 belah middle finger sambil tunjuk lidah*
• Dah jadik macam ni memang bertambah la rase fedap dan teros tak fikir pasal practical langsung.
• At last birthday Kid pon arrived on 26th 
• Dapat Blackberry baru on my birthday. Oyeh-oyeh! Setelah sekian lama menjanda setelah kehilangan blackberry bold 1 putih yang suci tu, Kid dapat pakai bb balek. Yeay!

June ; Bb curve grey limited edition 

July 2011

• Memang dah takde keje laen kan. Bangun, tido, makan, keluar, lepak, berjimba, balek tido. (okay ni tipulah kalau Kid buat hari2 but mostly memang pon -.-")
• College pon takde usaha meng-call handphone baru Kid yang sememang nya sentiasa on silent mood sbb bunyik-bunyian mobil gue membuatkan gue kangen sama teman lama gue. (fefeeling2 Indonesia)
• So ubat die adalah party hari-hari hahaha.

July ; PP torek @ the zone kl

July ; Envy @ changkat

July ; With fyrawr and kaka flock

July ; Space @ the heritage row

August 2011

• Still takde perkembangan pasal practical. Mmg dalam kepala hotak Kid dah nampak ayat FAILED dah. Ahh pedulik tidak, dah sah-sah hati ni tak tenang. Buat apepon tak jalan and tak jadik.
• Bukan pura2 baek by writing this down in here or mintak sympathy. This is what had happened. So Kid tulislah. Tak mention pon sape2. (Adelah yang japgi marah2 amuk kat twitter or update status fb) 
• My sister Izira Asiraf ni pon satu dah malam2 sehari sebelom pose ni lahh die nak ngidam makan nugget. (Aku yang pregnant kau pulak yg over) 
• Bamm! Dushh! Boom! Erkk! (inilah bunyik di malam sebelom puase selepas izira kene langgar pada jam dua pagi dekat kwsn persimpangan dilemma tu)
• Kecoh satu damansara case dia accident. Selamat lah wahai kereta neo yang selalu aku curik pakai tu!

Aug ; Mendapat ubat dia nak nugget kan

Aug ; Ohh baby darius

September 2011

• Bulan puase sampailah ke raya rasa sama macam last year.
• Budak2 yang pergi practical pon dah balek dari practical yang 5 bulan tu. (aku pon tanpa segan silu pura2 telah berjaya melaksanakan practical yg amat faktap itu)
• Habes je raya sume busy buat report. Aku nak buat report ape kalau dah prac pon tak pegi. Report polis boleh tak? ke bagi je report kad dekat lecturer aku.

Sept ; Puasa kononye

Sept ; 2nd Syawal

Sept ; 5th of syawal teros mengembara

October 2011

• All of sudden *pura2 terkejot* lecturer Kidcall and mintak hanta report practical. 
• Tanpa melengahkan masa dan membunuh peluang yang datang. Dengan seberapa pantas Kid berjaya menyiapkan report palsu. 
• Presentation okaylah. Sebab Kid pon terpaksa menipu sbb nak selamatkan diri and diploma ni.
• At last, memang menunggu result on this November then grad as i wish la kot.
• Kanda Kid, Izril Asiraf pon dah selamat maen kawen-kawen. (seronok lettew malam pertama)
• Party2 pon boleh tahan bulan Oct ni. Mmg auummm
• So far ni adalah summary on what had happened this year.

Oct ; Akad nikah 

Oct ; Kanda Izril's wedding

Oct ; Massive @ sepang 2011

Oct ; Massive with them

Oct ; Laidback Luke @ zouk

Oct ; PP @ the zone

Oct ; The beer factory @ sunway giza

Well for now i guess this is the only review as early of this year part 1 and part 2. Hope u guys enjoy and take it as a lesson. (Jangan buat mende2 tak elok yg Kid buat) 

Tata

IszrfAsrf

As early of this year review pt1

Dear 2011,

1st of November 2011. There's a lot of things that you guys had missed while im busy collecting every single pieces of me to rebuild and re-constructing my self once again. Whoever followed me before, i guess u guys well knew and recognized this November month.

A review as early of this year

January 2011

• Dealing with the 5th semester of my Diploma in Culinary Art. Yang paling best nye, tiap-tiap hari pergi class sebab nak habeskan class and this diploma. 
• Ponteng class memang yang paling arghh sekali. Well memang no heart at all nak pergi class. Without spirits and boleh nampak that my soul is kinda restless that time. Damn it! 
• Stayed in Shah Alam. Every single weekend mesti balek Damansara. Takleh blah duduk sane sebab rasa booring.

Jan ; Hair grew longer on

Jan ; Trying to hold on to my new image

February 2011

• Still undergoing process untuk habeskan diploma yang sangat panjang bagi Kid. Kid tak tau nape this is the only year in my 21 years old life rasa panjang sangat -___-" 
• Everyday pergi class sebab satu je goal, nak habeskan diploma. Biarlah pointer sucks ke ape ke, well biar lulus sudahlah. Nak lepaskan je.
• Kitchen class memang faktap. 6 hours duduk dalam kitchen and buat wedding cakes,chocolate. Presentation wedding cake and chocolate memang stress.  
• On presentation day takdelah sampai dapat gold medal for my presentation. They'd chose 10 students for gold medal, 10 students for silver medal and 10 students for bronze medal.
• Among 150 students, kid dapat bronze medal. Weeeee! Ohsem sgt! 

Feb ; Mos Rock Night - From left ; Harry, Comot, Ej, Kiddo, Kid, Amal and Black

Feb ; Chocolate presentation Bronze award - Arc, praline, filling, mold

March 2011

• The last examination that i've to face before entering my last semester in Diploma in Culinaty Arts. 
• Makin lame makin tak contact.
• Study memang tak langsung.Pastu balek tido. Bangun makan. Lepak jap. Tido.
• Final exam je mula la jumpe cinta kristal. Hafal notes memang yang paling hebat (sehebat A.Samad Said mengarang puisi) Korang anggap je lah memang hebat. Sebab nota untuk Malaysia  History yang 12 chapter Kid abeskan dalam masa 6 jam je before exam.
• At last, the result is ;

English For Hospitality : B+ (3.33)

Customer Service And Sales : A- (3.67)

Culinary Art and Design B : B- (2.67)

Restaurant Operation : C (2.00)

Human Resource : B+ (3.33)

• If u look on the result that has been stated above, for Design subject and Restaurant Operation tu mmg Kid tak dpt nak score. Acane Kid nak score, sebab subject2 tu takde writings examination. Tu amali. Kalau dah ponteng class sebab takde mood je memanjang memeng lah lecturer tu pangkah Kid enn! At last Kid dapat habeskan jugak 5th semester dengan jayanya walaupon semua subject2 diatas dilakukan atas usaha kid pada sehari sebelum exam. (Puaslah lah hati) -.-"

March ; Final exam result - code and subject

March ; Final exam result - Grade and pointer

April  2011

• After a semester break yang tak sampai setengah kerat (sumpah college ni mintak pijak dekat leher) Kid has been assigned to go and search for the next hotel for my last practical before i graduate and berambos from this college.
• Silapnya KECIK. Kid hanta resume and application for the next practical dekat Shangri-La KL without college helped. Well before this untuk Four Season Hotel Langkawi pon Kid buat sendiri. Hotel dah approve then only i will mention and inform to the head of my school in college.
• That new lecturer a.k.a the one that handle my batch sangat lah fussy. Well student dah tolong kurangkan beban kau by cari hotel sendiri and siap dah kene approve pon cukop baek. 
• Tapi tak! Dia argue dengan Kid and ckp yang Kid tak respect dia. Like hello. Cukop baek aku bgtau, kalau aku teros blah. Fak u to that lecturer sbb in the end dia dismiss kan name Kid dari Shangri-La and Kid teros pergi jumpa Head Of School and they asked me to find for other hotel in KL a.s.a.p ON MY OWN. Watefakkkkkk!!!!! (habes yang aku buat sebelum ni bukan sendiri ke syaiton!)
• Oleh disebabkan kebodohan lecturer yg everyone called as Bonda konon. well i had decided untuk melengahkan (pondan gemok tak siap tu bertanggungjawab atas perbuatan aku!) masa practical yg sepatutnya started on 4th of April to 4th of September. 
• Bullshit lah cara diorang handle this situation. 

April ; Practical ignored. went to Jb and Singapore
From left ; Megat lemang, Kid, Lia, harry and Zul

April ; Went to Langkawi just to kill my time

May   2011

• Berikutan case practical yang tak kesampaian tu, Kid pon duduk rumah (fefeeling2 bercuti padahal orang tgh sebok gigih dekat kitchen hotel berkerah keringat berpeloh-peloh walaupon dalam aircond) when semua org dalam my batch dah pon pergi practical.
• Orang kata! so okaylah mula2 boleh lah tahan. takleh lupe ape jadahnya....

May ; Went to Kedah 

May ; Went to A' Famosa this time -.-" 

As for now this is the half of the review of this entire year. The other half will be publish as soon as me got a mood to write this shits down again. Hope you enjoy reading this post and my upcoming post because this is how im going to write down all of the story start from now onward. Tata.

To Be Continue..


IszrfAsrf

New born kid

Hello,

Welcome back!

This is officially a welcoming back post to me. Since i deleted my blog before, now its the perfect time for me to create, re-write, share and post what's on my head, brain and heart once again. I enjoy writing and this is the perfect place for me to express not to impress anyone.

IszrfAsrf

Heart to heart

Dear Heart,

A heart that has been
carved by ur own hand

I really want to convince you, your eyes and especially, your heart. What is written here, not likely can be borne by everyone. I have no intention to embarrass or offend anyone, especially you. You are the last and certainly not the person that i want to see in hurt or being hurt..

Time is not something that I want to prove to you, that how strong I still hold on to our love that has been lost.. I want to show to you, your eyes and especially your heart, honestly I devote the innermost thoughts and feelings that I brought all this while.

The real things is loyalty, honesty and the sincerity that i brought for you. I might be the most rude, annoying, evil, vindictive and all the negative thoughts from your point of view right now, im sorry if im being a total jerk to you before.

I never keep even a single piece of revenge in my heart. You must be wondering why am i expressing the feelings and what is in my heart, I scratch here, in this blog. The answer is simple as this, I want you to read and understand the exact situation and the place that u'd put me to.

"But, what do you feel if you whole heartedly want to see someone you love and you have been told the wish in your heart to see him. But unfortunately, for you who really love him, what did you wish have not been seen just the way u wanted.."

I dont understand. If this is the karma of my predicament for all this while of allegiance to you, then I guess i'd done somethings real bad till i'd rewarded this way.

Maybe this was the way of my destiny

Admire you without being loved

It does not matter to me, as long as you were happy

With your life

Your life

Its too long that i buried this feelings

Waiting for your heart to accept me

It does not matter to me

Because im still loving you

And that's enough

To make me happy

me happy?

I want you to kno, I am here waiting for you

Even if i have to wait till the end of my time

And hope it's a sense of enduring forever

And let me hug you this time

To say goodbye for good

And let this happy feeling for a moment

Its hard to be Kiddish.