Heart to heart

Dear Heart,

A heart that has been
carved by ur own hand

I really want to convince you, your eyes and especially, your heart. What is written here, not likely can be borne by everyone. I have no intention to embarrass or offend anyone, especially you. You are the last and certainly not the person that i want to see in hurt or being hurt..

Time is not something that I want to prove to you, that how strong I still hold on to our love that has been lost.. I want to show to you, your eyes and especially your heart, honestly I devote the innermost thoughts and feelings that I brought all this while.

The real things is loyalty, honesty and the sincerity that i brought for you. I might be the most rude, annoying, evil, vindictive and all the negative thoughts from your point of view right now, im sorry if im being a total jerk to you before.

I never keep even a single piece of revenge in my heart. You must be wondering why am i expressing the feelings and what is in my heart, I scratch here, in this blog. The answer is simple as this, I want you to read and understand the exact situation and the place that u'd put me to.

"But, what do you feel if you whole heartedly want to see someone you love and you have been told the wish in your heart to see him. But unfortunately, for you who really love him, what did you wish have not been seen just the way u wanted.."

I dont understand. If this is the karma of my predicament for all this while of allegiance to you, then I guess i'd done somethings real bad till i'd rewarded this way.

Maybe this was the way of my destiny

Admire you without being loved

It does not matter to me, as long as you were happy

With your life

Your life

Its too long that i buried this feelings

Waiting for your heart to accept me

It does not matter to me

Because im still loving you

And that's enough

To make me happy

me happy?

I want you to kno, I am here waiting for you

Even if i have to wait till the end of my time

And hope it's a sense of enduring forever

And let me hug you this time

To say goodbye for good

And let this happy feeling for a moment

Its hard to be Kiddish.