Heart to heart

Dear Heart,

A heart that has been
carved by ur own hand

I really want to convince you, your eyes and especially, your heart. What is written here, not likely can be borne by everyone. I have no intention to embarrass or offend anyone, especially you. You are the last and certainly not the person that i want to see in hurt or being hurt..

Time is not something that I want to prove to you, that how strong I still hold on to our love that has been lost.. I want to show to you, your eyes and especially your heart, honestly I devote the innermost thoughts and feelings that I brought all this while.

The real things is loyalty, honesty and the sincerity that i brought for you. I might be the most rude, annoying, evil, vindictive and all the negative thoughts from your point of view right now, im sorry if im being a total jerk to you before.

I never keep even a single piece of revenge in my heart. You must be wondering why am i expressing the feelings and what is in my heart, I scratch here, in this blog. The answer is simple as this, I want you to read and understand the exact situation and the place that u'd put me to.

"But, what do you feel if you whole heartedly want to see someone you love and you have been told the wish in your heart to see him. But unfortunately, for you who really love him, what did you wish have not been seen just the way u wanted.."

I dont understand. If this is the karma of my predicament for all this while of allegiance to you, then I guess i'd done somethings real bad till i'd rewarded this way.

Maybe this was the way of my destiny

Admire you without being loved

It does not matter to me, as long as you were happy

With your life

Your life

Its too long that i buried this feelings

Waiting for your heart to accept me

It does not matter to me

Because im still loving you

And that's enough

To make me happy

me happy?

I want you to kno, I am here waiting for you

Even if i have to wait till the end of my time

And hope it's a sense of enduring forever

And let me hug you this time

To say goodbye for good

And let this happy feeling for a moment

Its hard to be Kiddish.

Childhood Sweeethearts

Dear Sweethearts,

The secret post

You can’t comprehend the meaning of soul mate as an adult unless you’ll go back in time and reminisce the joy that you’ve felt when you where still young with your first love, your teen sweetheart. If there is someone in the past that you'll remember for the rest of your life, it would be your teen sweetheart.

The exhilarating sensation when you hold hands, the magical feeling of that first kiss will forever linger in your heart and mind and no matter what have been; you will keep longing for those very special days with smile on your lips. Through the rain and sunshine, hand in hand we have laughed, we have cried. Danced under the moon light, hide and seek at night and through it all, after 20 years you and I sleep on the same bed as we both take care of the fruit of our love that we nurtured way back when we were young.

Young hearts so pure, chivalry at its best, serving the first love you’ve ever cared for beside your mother and sister, always wanting to be with the first boy you’ve ever missed beside your dad and your brother. He is your teen sweetheart.I was there at your worst, defended you against the bullies, offered my umbrella during the storms yet you didn’t even remember my name during our class reunion but one thing you’ve remember… The poem I gave you with my heart in it.

We played together, we were teased together. At the moment we will see each other again; I am the best man of yours, my best friend. Nothing can be compared with the bond that teen sweethearts share. Who could say that the love you felt for your teen sweetheart is just a love when you have done so much more for him that you cannot do for your partner today.

Teen sweetheart's affection is one of the purest forms of love as it is base on companionship rather than any worldly things. I envy child couples for they argue a lot but never sleep without talking and the next morning it's just one of those days when they make some words exchanges unlike adult couples who would rather sleep than talk about it and animosity may last until they part.

Its hard to be Kiddish.